People are like stained-glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in, their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light from within. Elisabeth Kubler-Ross
As you have the light, believe in the light. Then the light will be within you, and shining through your lives. You’ll be children of light. John 12:36 MSG
And we know that God causes all things to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them. Romans 8:28
I have wrestled with this verse for a LONG time.
I look at the trials I have faced in my own life and think that no good could come of it. Or that it wouldn’t be enough good for it to be worth what I’ve endured.
Now my journey includes Bell’s Palsy.
Bell’s Palsy onset- September 16, 2011
Six months after onset, the doctors said that was it. I would see no more change. And I haven’t.
After receiving the diagnosis I kept asking “why?” I thought about extreme tragedies that have turned out for “good.” I thought about people who have endured far worse and say they wouldn’t change it because of how God has used it.
But I’m not changing the world.
Struggling through unemployment, miscarriage and now Bell’s Palsy, won’t leave my name in the history books.
So how do I find joy in the midst of my circumstances? What “good” is coming out of my struggles?
The answer I’ve come to is this…
If I allow Him to, God will use my time here on earth to make me more like Christ.
And that needs to be enough “good” for me.
Satan wants to isolate us. He took my smile. He robbed me of my beauty and with half my face sagging and unresponsive, there are days where he manages to steal my confidence and strip me of my desire to be with people. No girl wants to hear the words, “What’s wrong with your face?
But if I listen to the lies of the enemy, he wins. And there aren’t a whole lot of things I want more than for him to LOSE.
I pray that God would change my heart and make me more loving, joyful, compassionate, generous and humble. If I open my life and my heart to his molding, he’ll use my circumstances to make me more like his Son.
I don’t have my miracle yet, but I’m grateful that God has brought me laughter even before my miracle has happened.
But I still hope for healing, that others would laugh with me.
God has brought me laughter, and everyone who hears about this will laugh with me. Genesis 21:6
For more inspiration from Amanda, watch this beautiful video of Amanda and Andy’s “surprise” 2013 marriage vow renewal. It’s well worth the extra minutes.
© Linda Crawford 2013